Post Labor Day
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
This morning I woke up feeling like I just got shot in the face... that's two mornings in a row.
Raina and I clocked in about 10 hours of Alias this weekend. Nice.
I also got to visit my grandmother yesterday. She seemed like she is improving. She actually waved to me and said "hi". But I doubt she even knows who I am. Her body has shriveled to the point where she is half my size. It makes me think of mortality again. Is she already gone? Or is her spirit in some limbo, still bound by time, until she physically dies? I don't know.
But last night, I struggled all night... wrestling the very thought of salvation and God. How do YOU know what you believe in is real? I know, but I want more. I want OTHER people to know that God is real by just looking at me. But that's impossible.. as Paul has said, that you must work out your salvation daily... Does that mean, I have to do good works to be saved? No. I'm still trying to figure that one out.
Like I said before, "eternity is a long time", but let me rephrase that: "Eternity is." It is neither bound by time nor length of time. It's scary,that's what it is. You can't cope with it. You can't run from it. You can barely take measures to prolong your life and actually "have" a life. But in eternity, you have no choice. No "time to serve" for your crimes. No electric chair, then it's over. More like, electric chair, then it STARTS over. Don't be in the wrong place when eternity comes.
Raina and I clocked in about 10 hours of Alias this weekend. Nice.
I also got to visit my grandmother yesterday. She seemed like she is improving. She actually waved to me and said "hi". But I doubt she even knows who I am. Her body has shriveled to the point where she is half my size. It makes me think of mortality again. Is she already gone? Or is her spirit in some limbo, still bound by time, until she physically dies? I don't know.
But last night, I struggled all night... wrestling the very thought of salvation and God. How do YOU know what you believe in is real? I know, but I want more. I want OTHER people to know that God is real by just looking at me. But that's impossible.. as Paul has said, that you must work out your salvation daily... Does that mean, I have to do good works to be saved? No. I'm still trying to figure that one out.
Like I said before, "eternity is a long time", but let me rephrase that: "Eternity is." It is neither bound by time nor length of time. It's scary,that's what it is. You can't cope with it. You can't run from it. You can barely take measures to prolong your life and actually "have" a life. But in eternity, you have no choice. No "time to serve" for your crimes. No electric chair, then it's over. More like, electric chair, then it STARTS over. Don't be in the wrong place when eternity comes.
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