Never ending rantings
Friday, November 19, 2004
When is there a greater feeling than being in God's service? None.
But I choose not to be so ignorant to the skewed views of the ones that put His service aside to lesser things... because I feel those frustrations. I live them and breathe them. What about those that are lost? The ones we're supposed to minister to? When will you realize that this "holier than thou" approach furthers that gap? When Jesus told the twelve to feed the five thousand +. That's what he meant: "Take this fish and bread... pass it out." The disciples, being constantly schooled by His parables and metaphors, they must've thought... "what does He mean by that?" It meant just that: Pass out the food. And as we know, God did the rest. It would be ludicrous for one of the disciples to look upon his service as holier than the ones receiving the food. After all, they were to eat as well.
I want to be the disciple that just listened. The miracle wasn't dependent upon my understanding of Christ's instruction. If Christ can feed five thousand + with just 5 loaves of bread and 2 fish... why would he need 12 people to pass out the food? His grace is simple in that we can take part in it or not. Sitting there and trying to rationalize the miracle can sometimes impede you from being an effective worker. Because if that were the case, I can spend my whole life just pondering why God woke me up this morning.
I feel the sting of mediocrity and I hate it. As it turns out, I am neither. I don't envy the holy, nor do I envy the ignorant. I struggle with my mediocrity and struggle to break away from it... even just a little. My expression is dampened by the pressures of "holier than thou"... and I want to go deeper. Not waste my time on simple things. But God calls me to a cluster of simpler things.
The discovery of God isn't a discovery. It is an acknowledgement of God's relevance in every facet of life. That God's existence isn't relative to MY views of His works or MY logic or MY interpretation of MY life. But that my life is soley dependent on the discretion of this Greater God. Think too hard about it and you'll lose the point. Right now you are thinking about whether God is real. And now you are thinking about thinking about whether God is real. The mind is deceitful like that. Imagine a person who can encompass all those thoughts in one simple understanding... he would indeed be a God. THAT God is who I worship.
Don't think that the vanity of your intelligence brings you closer to God. Kill me everyday Lord.
But I choose not to be so ignorant to the skewed views of the ones that put His service aside to lesser things... because I feel those frustrations. I live them and breathe them. What about those that are lost? The ones we're supposed to minister to? When will you realize that this "holier than thou" approach furthers that gap? When Jesus told the twelve to feed the five thousand +. That's what he meant: "Take this fish and bread... pass it out." The disciples, being constantly schooled by His parables and metaphors, they must've thought... "what does He mean by that?" It meant just that: Pass out the food. And as we know, God did the rest. It would be ludicrous for one of the disciples to look upon his service as holier than the ones receiving the food. After all, they were to eat as well.
I want to be the disciple that just listened. The miracle wasn't dependent upon my understanding of Christ's instruction. If Christ can feed five thousand + with just 5 loaves of bread and 2 fish... why would he need 12 people to pass out the food? His grace is simple in that we can take part in it or not. Sitting there and trying to rationalize the miracle can sometimes impede you from being an effective worker. Because if that were the case, I can spend my whole life just pondering why God woke me up this morning.
I feel the sting of mediocrity and I hate it. As it turns out, I am neither. I don't envy the holy, nor do I envy the ignorant. I struggle with my mediocrity and struggle to break away from it... even just a little. My expression is dampened by the pressures of "holier than thou"... and I want to go deeper. Not waste my time on simple things. But God calls me to a cluster of simpler things.
The discovery of God isn't a discovery. It is an acknowledgement of God's relevance in every facet of life. That God's existence isn't relative to MY views of His works or MY logic or MY interpretation of MY life. But that my life is soley dependent on the discretion of this Greater God. Think too hard about it and you'll lose the point. Right now you are thinking about whether God is real. And now you are thinking about thinking about whether God is real. The mind is deceitful like that. Imagine a person who can encompass all those thoughts in one simple understanding... he would indeed be a God. THAT God is who I worship.
Don't think that the vanity of your intelligence brings you closer to God. Kill me everyday Lord.
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