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Monday, September 26, 2005
I've been having some weird dreams lately.
I'm currently reading a book called "Heart of the Artist". So far, it's going through the "artists" all around us in the church. Although it tries to encapsulate artists in general, ie: actors, lighting engineers, musicians etc, I can feel that the writer is gearing his message about musicians. Why not just title it "Heart of the Musician"? Anyway, the book is a little contradicting in that it tries to explain the thing that, he says, is impossible for us artists to explain. Get it? Basically, artists are a bit off. The reason why they are off is because, there is no reasonable way to really portray how our heart feels.
Are you a self proclaimed artist? Or is that contradicting in itself? Are you only granted "artist" status if someone else nominates you? And when someone does, do you have to pretend to deny it? And if you do embrace the title, does that make you a fraud? If you say that you are different, are you any differnt at all?
"I don't think you're an artist cos you're not melencholy enough."
How do you manufacture depression? A musician or an artist who's integrity is still in tact, feels the dying urge to capture his state of being. I absolutely love the irony of those super angry metal bands like Slipknot (who are greatly skilled musicians in their own right) who sing about how screwed up everything is... and then go out to after-parties and sign endorsement deals with music companies for even the benign things like: effect pedals or guitar strings. I thought life was incredibly screwed up. Or on the opposite end of the spectrum, boy bands singing about their one true love while having their roadies pick hot girls in the crowd to sleep with in the tour bus. I thought the 80s were over.
No matter what, all the buy-in that artists have to be this and that is a cop-out... even the cop-out is a cop-out. If you're reading this and you think I'm telling the truth... standin' up to da man... then you're a cop-out too. It's cool to be different now a days, like eveyone else is.
Yesterday, I was at UCLA's Bruin Bash... which is an event to promote all the clubs on campus. As I was entering the IM field where all the tables were set up... I saw in front of me, a geek. A full blown typical geek: Glasses, skinny, dad's polo shirt tucked in too tightly into his flooding pants, the belt line above his belly button, loafers, bowl hair cut... As I was gaulking at his bravery to step on the field with hundreds of cool people like me, I noticed 2 more walking with him. One didn't have glasses but he had pimples. I stopped and thought for a while about their utter clueless fashion sense. How can anyone in sun-tanned Los Angeles be as rocket-science geeky as that? ... definitely part of the Science club.
I realized, that they were more true than I was. They embrace their fancinations and run with it... a true passion that doesn't involve being "cool". If you know "how to be cool", then are you really cool? How many of you are actually naturally cool? They weren't, and they showed it... that's pretty cool.
I'm not an artist either... I'm a fraud that put on a pretty good show. And I'm not putting on a show about putting on a show. I wish I was a geek.
I'm currently reading a book called "Heart of the Artist". So far, it's going through the "artists" all around us in the church. Although it tries to encapsulate artists in general, ie: actors, lighting engineers, musicians etc, I can feel that the writer is gearing his message about musicians. Why not just title it "Heart of the Musician"? Anyway, the book is a little contradicting in that it tries to explain the thing that, he says, is impossible for us artists to explain. Get it? Basically, artists are a bit off. The reason why they are off is because, there is no reasonable way to really portray how our heart feels.
Are you a self proclaimed artist? Or is that contradicting in itself? Are you only granted "artist" status if someone else nominates you? And when someone does, do you have to pretend to deny it? And if you do embrace the title, does that make you a fraud? If you say that you are different, are you any differnt at all?
"I don't think you're an artist cos you're not melencholy enough."
How do you manufacture depression? A musician or an artist who's integrity is still in tact, feels the dying urge to capture his state of being. I absolutely love the irony of those super angry metal bands like Slipknot (who are greatly skilled musicians in their own right) who sing about how screwed up everything is... and then go out to after-parties and sign endorsement deals with music companies for even the benign things like: effect pedals or guitar strings. I thought life was incredibly screwed up. Or on the opposite end of the spectrum, boy bands singing about their one true love while having their roadies pick hot girls in the crowd to sleep with in the tour bus. I thought the 80s were over.
No matter what, all the buy-in that artists have to be this and that is a cop-out... even the cop-out is a cop-out. If you're reading this and you think I'm telling the truth... standin' up to da man... then you're a cop-out too. It's cool to be different now a days, like eveyone else is.
Yesterday, I was at UCLA's Bruin Bash... which is an event to promote all the clubs on campus. As I was entering the IM field where all the tables were set up... I saw in front of me, a geek. A full blown typical geek: Glasses, skinny, dad's polo shirt tucked in too tightly into his flooding pants, the belt line above his belly button, loafers, bowl hair cut... As I was gaulking at his bravery to step on the field with hundreds of cool people like me, I noticed 2 more walking with him. One didn't have glasses but he had pimples. I stopped and thought for a while about their utter clueless fashion sense. How can anyone in sun-tanned Los Angeles be as rocket-science geeky as that? ... definitely part of the Science club.
I realized, that they were more true than I was. They embrace their fancinations and run with it... a true passion that doesn't involve being "cool". If you know "how to be cool", then are you really cool? How many of you are actually naturally cool? They weren't, and they showed it... that's pretty cool.
I'm not an artist either... I'm a fraud that put on a pretty good show. And I'm not putting on a show about putting on a show. I wish I was a geek.
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