OCD
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Are you OCD? I believe I am a little.
Right now, I feel a little bit stressed out. I don't have debt really anymore, but the prospect of having debt freaks me out. I have to be on time to events and things, or else I get really anxious... if others are late, I get really bothered. My bed has to "feel" a certain way before I sleep. I don't like touching anything in a public restroom. If I was overweight, I think I'd literally die from anxiety. I have to plan things "my" way or else I'm cool with anything... basically, if it's not my way, I have to distance myself so far from the planning, that I can justify that I had nothing to do with it. Right now, I'm worried that this paragraph is too chunky compared to the first paragraph that is only one line of text. If my coffee cup has water spots on it from the dishwasher, it bothers me. I don't obesessively clean my room, but it bothers me when it's not perfectly clean... so basically, my room bothers me a lot. I either don't care at all how clothes look on me or I am completely concerned in how clothes cling to my body. When I see patterns in wallpaper, in ceiling tiles, in paintings and print-work, I have to discet them in my mind and make sense of the arrangement. When I can't play guitar well, I feel so unworthy.
BTW, it was my birthday this past Saturday. :)
Right now, I feel a little bit stressed out. I don't have debt really anymore, but the prospect of having debt freaks me out. I have to be on time to events and things, or else I get really anxious... if others are late, I get really bothered. My bed has to "feel" a certain way before I sleep. I don't like touching anything in a public restroom. If I was overweight, I think I'd literally die from anxiety. I have to plan things "my" way or else I'm cool with anything... basically, if it's not my way, I have to distance myself so far from the planning, that I can justify that I had nothing to do with it. Right now, I'm worried that this paragraph is too chunky compared to the first paragraph that is only one line of text. If my coffee cup has water spots on it from the dishwasher, it bothers me. I don't obesessively clean my room, but it bothers me when it's not perfectly clean... so basically, my room bothers me a lot. I either don't care at all how clothes look on me or I am completely concerned in how clothes cling to my body. When I see patterns in wallpaper, in ceiling tiles, in paintings and print-work, I have to discet them in my mind and make sense of the arrangement. When I can't play guitar well, I feel so unworthy.
BTW, it was my birthday this past Saturday. :)
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